Man these pregnancy hormones are hitting me hard. I have been crying at a drop of a hat lately. A few days ago I started crying for literally no reason at all. We were watching America's Funniest Home Videos. I was laughing and then all of a sudden I was crying. I think it was because the clip had quadruplet babies who were laughing and it was just so darn cute.
Then last night I starting crying in the shower. At least this time I had a reason. I was all of a sudden missing my mom (she passed away when I was 15). I was thinking how I would really have liked to share this experience with her (the pregnancy, not the shower), and how she would be so happy. Also I was missing how she would know what to tell me when I was feeling nervous about the future.
Then, and I'm sorry if this is TMI, but right in the middle of some "quality time" with my dear husband I broke out crying for no reason. I was just overcome with emotion. I felt really bad and somewhat embarrassed.
This morning I was making Apoorva eggs for breakfast (I spoil him), and I burned my hand pretty badly on the pan. Normally I would swear up a storm and then move on. But today I just collapsed onto the kitchen floor and bawled. DH was about ready to take me to the hospital because he thought it was much worse than it actually was, because I was crying so hard.
What is so weird is that I'm just not a person that cries a lot. It's not a bad thing, it's just not me. I cry maybe a few times a year. For instance in the past 6 months I can think of three times, twice when my step-mom was diagnosed with cancer and once when Apoorva and I got into a big fight. It's just not me. So it feels so weird to be crying so much. Like I'm losing control.
Oh well, if that's what it take to make a baby I just have to deal with it. Well, more importantly I guess Apoorva has to deal with it :-) And I should count myself lucky I'm not having any bad morning sickness (I'm just a little nausous sometimes, but that's it).
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