Friday the 13th... Go Figure

So on Friday I decided to call my OB to tell them about the side pains I've been having. Being the anxious person that I am I was worried about an ectopic pregnancy. They had room for me to come in that day to give me an ultrasound and an exam.

For some reason right before they gave me the ultrasound I had a horrible feeling. Something just wasn't right. My instincts were proven right once again when up on the screen popped an empty gestational sac, but no baby. My doctor told us (Apoorva came with me thank god) that she thinks it's a blighted ovum. My body is preparing itself for the pregnancy and the placenta is starting to develop, but the baby never started growing. Unfortunately my body isn't catching on very quickly because the blood tests they took show that my betas (pregnancy hormones) continue to double every 48 hours. Therefore while I know there is no baby my morning sickness and pregnancy symptoms are continuing to get worse. That's just a crule joke for nature to play...

I go back to the doctor today to see if maybe the baby was hiding or too small to see. But while I'm trying to have hope and faith that we'll see a little heartbeat today, deep inside I feel that we wont. Most likely we'll have to make the hard decision on whether to let my body naturally miscarry, which may take weeks, or to have minor surgery to help things along.

Life as I know it isn't so great today. All I can do is count my blessings and hope for the best.